Ok. I finally had enough. I’m so tired of everything. I have been lacking desire to do much of anything, and losing myself in escapism. It has been adversely affecting every area of my life. I know I need to do something before I completely lose it. I know and trust that God has been carrying me through, but this cross has been a heavy load.

I found a counseling center near my office, the only one within walking distance. As I take the bus to and from work, and am not home during the week, I needed to find something near my work that took my insurance. This place is a non-profit counseling center, and when I explained my situation, they gave me a rate that was almost the rate of my co-pay. I will start going there next week during my lunch break. Between that, and the prayers and support of my Christian brothers and sisters, I know that the Lord will strengthen me again.